lipgloss and letdowns

you ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna pay...

2004-03-19T05:18:56Z

this is for megan:

wow megan, i wonder why no one likes you, its because you're a fucking bitch and you use people. you think you're the little princess and that everything that goes wrong in your life is the other persons fault, open your fucking eyes megan, you walk around like everyone should be bowing at your fucking feet. and the only times you even call me or talk to me online is cause you want me to sneak out and give you a "fag". at least my real friends accually call and IM me to TALK. i think kohl was right with this one, maybe if you werent such a bitch, you'd have more friends. you make yourself out to be the little angel, like your life is so fucking hard, and everyone should be nice to you even though you're a bitch to everyone else, claiming to be "truthful" yea you're far from that. i think you need to get a fucking life out of your drug induced dream world.
you owe me $50, and you lied to my face every fucking day saying you didnt have any money even though you know you did, and even just admitted that you did. i hope everyone reading this will finally understand you megan. even molly agrees with me. you need to realize that the world doesnt revolve around megan. i had a job, i worked 6 fucking days a week, while you got to go home to your nice 2 story house with 2 mercedes, and go to sleep untill your mom let you go out until wee hours in the morning doing whatever, because you're a little princess and you begged me for just $5, even that one time i wouldnt give you $1 you didnt talk to me all day, so do you think i was gonna say no? well there i am, giving you my hard earned cash, so you could go buy your drugs, gas, food, whatever, and you promised me you'd pay me back, but i got nothing. i didnt get shit. i lend you my clothes, i never yell at you, only for reasons worth it, like these. i put up with your shit every day, adn what do i get in return? you claimed to be my best friend, but even my enemy's are nicer to me than you. yea i kissed kohl megan, so fucking shoot me. you went out with jym, and fucking layed in a bed with my boyfriend at the time,and bragged about it, and when he broke up with me for you, did you even feel bad? when you started liking him, did you even think about how much you hurt my feelings? this is in no way different. you said that you want me to be mad at you so that it would be easier for you to be mad at me, well it fucking worked. you dont want to forgive me, well here i am, and i dont think ill ever forgive you. all i can say is fuck you megan. fuck you. times 12. and 1/2.

...you're cute and your swell, and everyone can tell, i've fallen head over heals for you...

2004-02-28T00:39:30Z

so i've been thinking a lot today. a lot of stuff has been runing through my head, lots of emotions, but im still really happy. this is the first time i've been happy in a really long time, and i like it. i dont want it to go away. ever.
but then i start thinking (get a little dizzy...) and i start, well not regretting anything, but just thinking twice, i dunno, but all i do know is that i wouldnt take it back for anything.

so today kelly was loking a wee bit down in the dumps, so brian told me to give kelly a little kiss to make him happy, so i did, and brian said that kelly smiled for a really long time, hehe, thats so cute... *grin... anyways...

today i was thinking, how neat it would be if you could just dissapear with someone, and like stop time, except for you guys, adn you could do whatever you wanted, fuck in a tree for all you care, and no one woould ever know, and you could start time back up whenever you wanted. how fucking rad would that be??

i miss megan.

"...it's hard to know where to start so hard to open my heart not knowing what my words may impart you're the guy i adore and i just can't ignore that each day i like you more than the day before..."

luvrsandliars @ 2004-01-27T15:07:00

2004-01-27T23:00:32Z

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your head in your hands and this is my cue. if three words could heal you, i'd only speak two...

2004-01-19T04:54:43Z

so nim living at my friends house now. i would say waht friend, but i dont want it getting around to my mom. so yea. but im safe, i have my own room, good food, even though its all vegan food, its still yummy. she makes me go to school, and work, so she is pretty much like my mom. im at kyles house right now, she said that i can go out,m but ihave to be home by like 11 or something. i love her like woah. chelsea gave me a whole bunch of her clothes, cause i dont have any, and me and her are the same size, so it works. but, yea, i dont know when ill be able to update next,m cause i dont have internet access at my "new house" but im sure i cn at school or something. i love you all. goodnight...

with all the pride and dignity of a drowning swimmer

2004-01-13T21:54:52Z

"...i've never been one to put my trust in.when did i become so weak or have i always been..."

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